I had enough, seriously. I want to stop the pain and end everything. But i keep telling myself to bear the pain. Its all for the sake of you. Yet, u just cant seems to understand how i felt.

Maybe i was stupid, maybe i was too native, maybe i was wrong.

But i wont give up, not this time, not anymore.

Everything i did, u just reject my help. No matter how hard i tried, u just have no respond. I dun blame you for ur action, i only blame myself for my stupidity.

I distract myself by many means, but these actions were all in vain. Everything i did, was not enought to make me unstuck myself from the com, the moment u say Hi.

To my friends reading this, i DUN BLAME U FOR WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING NOW. I MEAN IT SERIOUSLY. I DUN BLAME YOU. YOU ARE NOT AT FAULT. There is no opposite meaning in these sentence, just that the correct person should catch it.

I dun regrat to make the decision to suffer for you, cos i know the journey would be hard. Neither do i want any result, all i hope is for the best. Things i predict came true, be it this or that way. But i just cant face the facts.

And lastly, on my way home, i finally let it flow out within me. Haven done it for a very very long time. But i did not feel better, just more sad.

PS: i will continue the suffering